I was just surfing the net tonight and came across this website. It looks lovely.

I am an American Caucasion gay femme man in my mid-40s, but I look like I am in my mid-30s.
For most of my life I was a hetrosexual man, I was married three times to three different women.
I have four daughters ranging in age from three to twentyone.
I have three White daughters (who are blonde and blue eyed like I am) and a mixed race daughter that I had with my last wife who was a Black woman (whom I am still very close to, she is my best lady friend).

Gradually over the last few years I became bisexual and then gay. I have always loved dressing as a woman and even in my most hetrosexual days wore long hair, earrings in my pierced ear lobes, fashion scarves, and high heeled boots.
I am now with a handsome masculine man as his lady. He is a businessman in his late 30s, quite wealthy and he owns a beautiful home where we live.
I am slender and very feminine, I have beautiful, long straight silky mid-back length (just past bra strap length) blonde hair, and I am 5' 11 tall.
My man Jay is masculine, slender and athletically built. He is gorgeous and tall, he is 6' 5" tall. He is very handsome, and he dresses very masculine, he is in fact a very masculine man, you would never guess he is gay. Like myself he is a Caucasion. He has short blonde wavy hair cut in a masculine businessman's hairstyle.

I was a cab driver and owned a cab company, but it got to be too stressful and much too macho of a job for me. I recently sold my cab company and have been living with my man as his lady and just being his "housewife" full time.
I am dressing full time as a woman. I shave my legs and underarms, wear feminine skirts, nylons, high heels, silicone breast forms and bras and women's blouses, fashion scarves, eyeliner, mascara, eye shadow, lipstick. I wear earrings (I have each ear lobe pierced three times), a necklace, bracelets (I prefer 14 ct. gold and diamond jewelry). I wear women's perfume, have my nails done and wear nail polish, I carry a purse (sometimes a shoulderbag purse, sometimes a little handbag purse), I essentially live and dress as a woman. I have beautiful, long, straight, silky blonde hair that is mid-back length (or just past bra length). I have my long hair deep-conditioned at my beauty salon. My lady beautician is wonderful with my beautiful long tresses and she is a lovely lady. While at the beauty salon I get my nails done, my eyebrows waxed and shaped, and sometimes a massage, and my makeup professionally applied. My loving man Jay pays for my beauty appointments as part of my "housewife" allowance he gives me.

I got divorced from my wife (as I stated I am still very close to her as a friend, as a "spiritual lover"), and so know I am in this relationship with my very masculine, handsome loving man who loves very femme gay men. What my man Jay really loves is She-Males though, men who are completely femininized in every way except they retain their male genetalia.
I have had a craving for awhile to femininze myself. So my man and I are very compatible in this regard. We compliment each other very well as he loves ultra-feminized gay femme men, especially beautiful feminine She-Males, and I would love to be a She-Male.

I am in the process of becoming a She-Male. I am having my facial hair and my chest , leg and underarm hair removed with laser and electrolysis. I am going to have saline women's breast implants. I am going to have a nose job to give me a more feminine and beautiful nose. I am also going to have some other plastic surgery done on my face to remove a few little wrinkles I have, and possibly to have my chin be made more feminine. I am taking voice lessons to talk as a woman, to walk more feminine and have feminine mannerisms. I will most likely take female hormones.
I eat mostly vegetarian and am very slender and healthy.
Well I can tell you is little by little all of what I want, all of the femininzation to make me a beautiful and feminine"lady", a She-Male, and a very feminine and beautiful one at that, is happening.
I am in the process of having my facial, chest, leg and underarm hair removed. It should be completed by May of this year. I am going in for my rinoplasty (a nose job) on Feb. 3rd. Later in April I am having some more plastic surgery done. In May I am getting my breast implants.

I have talked with my doctors about female hormones. No decision yet has been made on that.
I am going to wait until my other feminization is done before I decide what female hormones and in what doses I am going to take, or if I need to take female hormones to pass as a woman (I might need to, and it is my goal to not only pass as a woman but a very feminine and beautiful one. I desire to be a complete feminine She-Male, who lives as a woman, is known as a woman and can completely pass as one. I don't even wear jeans or slacks these days or men's shoes. I wear exclusively skirts, dresses, women's blouses, women's shoes, including high heels, etc...)
I am in excellent health and I eat a healthy balanced mostly vegetarian diet, take vitamins, and exercise. (I am an ex-soccer player and still love watching the game. I have a satellite dish tv and watch the best soccer teams in the world play, the major teams in Europe and South America).

Next autumn, my handsome, masculine, loving man Jay and I are getting married in Amsterdam, Holland (where gay marriage is legal). I will be his feminine loving wife, and use my feminine name of Johnette, and take my loving husband's last name (yes I am a traditional "lady" ).
My ex-wife Monique, who is such a close ladyfriend of mine, is going to give me away at my wedding to Jay. I am honored that she wants to do that. My two oldest daughters, who are both in college and are 19 and 21 yrs. of age, will be my bridesmaids. That will be lovely having my daughters at my wedding.
Jay's best friend, a hetrosexual guy, is going to be his best man.
We are just going to have a small wedding with a few close family members and friends. Amongst those who will be at the wedding are; my sisters, their husbands, and perhaps a few of their kids, my mom, Monique's mom(whom I am also close with), Jay's mom, Jay's sister and her husband and their two kids (a boy and a girl).

Next month after I recover from my nose job, Jay is taking me out to buy me a diamond engagement ring, and we will eventually shop for my wedding dress.
I want a traditional marriage, I want a beautiful long white wedding dress, a white veil tied into my long blonde hair which will be worn in a beautiful updo (my ex-wife Monique is going to do my updo at my wedding, she is wonderful at that and loves to pin my beautiful long blonde tresses up for me. It is nice to have an ex-wife who is such a lovely friend and who loves femininzing me.
Jay will be so handsome in a traditional black groom's outfit.
I love my handsome man Jay in a suit, slacks and a tie. He always dresses so masculine, he is such a handsome and masculine man. We are very much in love and I love being his lady, and pleasing him as a loving and submissive She-Male lady can please her man sexually and sensually. We are very in love and know how to please each other in so many ways.

I plan on next year going back to college and finish getting my degree in chemical dependency counseling.
I will go to college as a woman, in fact live as a woman, look like a woman, act like a woman, my goal is to be completely femininized, to be a beautiful and feminine She-Male, who people believe is a woman, and of course because no one will see my male genetalia under my skirts and dresses (except my loving husband ), I will be a woman to them.
I would like to get involved in more things politically (including gay/lesbian/bisexual, and transexual issues), and also become a chemical dependency counslor, possibly for gay/lesbian/bisexual/ and transexual people.
I quit dangerous drugs twenty years ago myself, and believe I can assist others in quitting drugs.

My life is going well right now, I am with a man I love and will be his lady and his wife. I am becoming feminnzed and will soon be a beautiful She-Male living as a woman. I have good relationships with my ex-wife, my daughters, and other close friends and relatives. I am out of the closet as a gay femme man and dressing and living as a woman. Things are going good for me.

Thank you for reading this.
I appreciate this forum and your website.
There are several hundred thousand She-Males (or whatever term you prefer), living in North America these days. Some are pre-op and will become completely women. Others like me will continue to be submissive, feminine, loving She-Males for our handsome, loving, masculine men.
There is a need for us to have forums and websites like this to express ourselves. I very much appreciate it.
Thank you darlings.

With much love,
Johnette

The boards on this website are real active aren't they.

Johnette,

I can only say that I look forward to your happiness with enthusiasm. It seems like you are surrounded by people who both love you and support you, which is both wonderful and rare.

Congratulations on your engagement, your transition, and, hopefully, your happy life. We should all be so lucky.

Egg

Thank you darling!

It is an exciting time for me. I do love being femininized in my process of becoming a beautiful and feminine She-Male (or T-Lady if you prefer )
I sooooo love being feminine, and pleasing my wonderful handsome masculine loving man and being his loving lady. I do so love being made into a sexy, feminine, sensual She-Male!

I read your profile Mr. EggPlant Jones (what a name! lol!).
I hope you find the She-Male of your dreams and are her handsome, masculine, loving man.
Take care sweetie!

Thanks, Johnette. Honestly, though, I don't know what I want. My journey is still not complete, I guess. One thing that I do know is that I find ts women fascinating and beautiful.

Hello Johnette.
Your man is very lucky to have you as his beautiful t-girl. You sound very feminine and like a wonderful lady.

Thank you Ted darling!

hey sweety,I'd love to meet you.My e-mail address is sexee2006@yahoo.com.Send me a photo and and your number and I can call you anytime when I'm able.It would be nice to see if you are as sexy as your letters.Smile.I will speak to you soon I hope..Bye-Bye.

Thank you Joshua, but I am already taken by a wonderful man.

I do enjoy chatting though with other T-ladies, and the men who love them, on websites like this.

Your man so lucky, Johnette. I would do anything to have a shemale like you as my lover. You must have guys hitting on you all the time. huh? Shemales are in such high demand. It's too bad there aren't more of them around.

Thank you NewsGuy!

Darling, I will have even more guys interested in me once I complete my facial surgery, and get my breast implants.
Then I really will have a beautiful and feminine woman's face and a woman's breasts.

You should undergo facial surgery, that will help to enhance your facial feminine qualities. As for breast implants, there's no much reason for you to get them, since you should develop breasts naturally once your hormonal treatments kick into place. Lots of guys like girls with small breasts, never forget that. But of course, if you want implants, that's your decision. I just hope you know that they're not necessary.

That's true, but I want larger breasts than what I would get with just the female hormones I am taking.
I am going to have facial surgery on Wednesday of this week. My nose and chin done.
I need to have my chest hair removal treatments completed before I can get my breast implants.

Are you aware that a lot of women who get implants lose nipple sensitivity? Some women even experience permanent numbness of their chest region after undergoing breast augmentation. You need to take all this into consideration before following through with the procedure.

I know T-ladies and genetic women with breast implants and they, and their men, love them.

I have some time though before I get my breast implants. If I am happy with how my breasts are after the extended female hormonal use, I might consider foregoing the breast implants. We shall see about that.
It is something I could discuss with my man, I know he is very much a tits man, he loves beautiful breasts on t-ladies.

Since you will be living as a shemale woman, and want to look like a feminine, pretty, shapely lady, if you need the breast implants Johnette, to really make your breasts large enough and beautiful enough, then get them.
Why not, they can look and feel good on a lady!

Thank you Ted. I am recovering nicely from my facial feminization surgery, they did alot of work on my nose and chin.
I don't look so good now, but in a few weeks I should look feminine and beautiful. I am loving being made into a beautiful and feminine lady!

Johnette, just let me know if you want to post any of your photos on the message board. I can arrange that for you. I know everyone would love to see your lovely results. I hope everything is going well.

Thanks for your efforts to help out with the message board.

Adam

Hi Johnette,

I hope you're feeling better by now. It ain't easy being beautiful - but it sure is worth it!

I can't wait to see you when you're ready to show off.

Hugs 'n Kisses,

Kristy

My thanks to both of you darling people.
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I am going in later this month for a little more facial surgery.

I still have a ways to go in completion of my facial and chest hair removal.
I am waiting to see how large my breasts will grow with estrogen before I decide if I want breast implants. My guess is I will probably get them.
My man Jay and I have been discussing the possibility of me getting sexual reassignment surgery, being castrated and being given a vagina. This is a difficult decision. I do love my testicles and my "ladystick", but I also love the idea of having my feminization completed and being given a beautiful vagina. I told Jay it is his decision whether I should be castarated or not. He said he would love me as a She-male or a complete transexual woman with a vagina. So he told me it is my decision.
lol!
I want him to decide and he wants me to decide this.
Either way, I will be a lady, his loving lady, and he will be my loving man.
We have talked of going to Thailand for my sexual reassignment surgery and possibly vacationing there after my surgery, and then getting my legal status changed to female and getting a legal hetrosexual marriage.
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My guess is that I will eventually go through with the SRS, because I could then change my legal status to female, and would not only look and act like a woman, as She-males do also of course, but because I would completely have female parts, I could get my legal status changed, and would be considered a woman legally, and could get legally married to Jay, and we could even adopt children.
I have four beautiful daughters, and I loved the experience of being a father, but I would also love to experience being a mom to a beautiful adopted child or two. I love my daughters but would also love being a mom to a beautiful little baby boy, and I know that Jay would like to be a father.
My man Jay considers himself a hetrosexual man, he is gorgeous, he is a very handsome and masculine guy, and he is younger than me, and has been with both genetic women and She-males. He prefers She-Males and transexual women though, and is loving my transformation from male to female, it is wonderful and exciting for him as it is for me. He loves the idea of a sissy, femininized man being made into a gorgeous feminine woman, his loving woman.
Jay has never had children, and at times seems to want to be a father, so we will see how it goes.
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These are all things we will decide over the next year or two, whether I am to be castrated and given the gift of a beautiful vagina, or whether I am to keep my testicles and ladystick and live as a beautiful and feminine She-Male. Whether I will recieve a vagina and get my legal status changed to female, and become a hetrosexual woman, and possibly adopt a child or two with my handsome, loving man Jay.

I can say this, I am loving being made into a beautiful, feminine lady!

Johnette,

Please keep in touch and let us know how you're doing. I can tell you're going to do fine with the sometimes difficult feminization process. In fact, painful and expensive also come to mind. I was fortunate that I didn't need too much electrolysis, but it still sucked. Hang in there grrlfriend!

I probably don't need to say this, but please carefully consider your decision of whether to have gender reassignment surgery. It is obviously a huge decision. It sounds like you have a very special guy there to support you. I hope your children will also be accepting and supportive.

I can relate to what you say about enjoying the process of becoming a beautiful feminine lady. I also enjoyed the process! It's a special path in life that we follow. It sure has its down side, but there are magical moments of revelation and ecstasy as you experience new things as a female. My advice to anyone transitioning is to enjoy the journey!

Hugs n' Kisses,

Kristy

Kristy,
I know from your posts how much you love being a non-op transexual woman, and I know that transexual ladies who are women in every way, except for the fact they still have their ladystick and testicles, really turn some men on. You are beautiful the way you are, and I am sure there are men that find you very exciting to be with.

But in my case, I believe I am probably a pre-op transexual woman.
With the exception of my fiancee Jay, most of the other people I associate with are my genetic women friends, or my she-male and transexual women friends. And most of my transexual lady friends are either post-op or pre-op.

Sometimes it is very difficult for me when I am out somewhere with my post-op transexual women friends, knowing that they have been castarated and have been given the gift of having a wonderful vagina. It is especially difficult if the conversation turns to them having sex with their men. I know they are having sex with their men just as a woman has intercourse with a man.
Most of my post-op transexual women friends absolutely love having a vagina, they wanted that very much for themselves, and loved the whole feminization process, as I do. They love being as feminine and ladylike as possible, and love the fact that they are now completely and legally women.

I have one transexual woman friend who was very reluctant to be castrated and given a vagina, she really loved being a beautiful She-male, but she was very in love with this man who wanted her castrated and given a vagina, and basically she went along with his wishes, she was very in love with him. She has not only adjusted to having a vagina, but she now loves it. It took her a few months to get used to having a vagina, but now she wouldn't go back to having testicles and a ladystick even if she could. She is loving being a beautiful post-op transexual, and has had her legal status changed to female, recently got married to her man in a legal wedding, and they are planning on adopting kids.

I know that at times I love being a She-male with my testicles and ladystick, but there are other times that I very strongly desire to be castarated and be given a vagina, and get my legal status changed to a woman (since like you, I look and act and live as a woman).
I believe every transexual she-male lady must at times desire to be castrated and be given a beautiful vagina.
After all, we have become women.

My man also has mixed emotions about me being castrated. He loves me as a She-male, that turns him on, but at times it also really turns him on, the idea of me being completely feminized in every way, including being castrated and given a vagina.
I told Jay that it is up to him whether I am given a vagina or not. It seems that lately he has been leaning towards the idea of me being castrated and give a vagina. When he is affectionate with me and making love to me, he sometimes tells me that he will love it when I am castrated and given a vagina. I know that turns him on.
The more feminine I get, the more of a lady I become, the more loving and affectionate my man Jay is with me. He has always loved making love to me and being gentle and affectionate with me, he has always treated me as a lady. Now it seems he wants me to complete the process. It seems like he really does want me completely and legally changed to a woman, that he wants to marry me, and wants me to be his wife.

It is difficult, because I really do love being a She-Male with a ladystick and testicles, and I know he loves me that way also. But lately my desire to be castarated and given a beautiful vagina, and his desire for me to be a complete woman with a vagina, seems to be growing.

As far as my daughters goes, that isn't a problem. They very much accept me as a woman. I have a wonderful relationship with them. We do each other's hair, go to the beauty salon together, get our nails done together, go shopping together, they lost a father but gained another mom. They are wonderful, progressive, beautiful daughters. My two oldest daughters in college both have boyfriends that are accepting of me also. It helps that we live in a progressive part of the country, in the tolerant Minneapolis/St. Paul area, probably the most progressive metro area in the midwest, along with some parts of Chicago. The Twin Cities are really more like Seattle or San Francisco than they are like some of the other midwest cities.

My ex-wife Monique has been wonderful. She is such a beautiful woman, both inside and out, and in some ways we have become even closer since I have been made into a woman. Monique has a new man that she is with, and Monique and I have become best girlfriends. We discuss our men, get our nails done together, go shopping together, go out for lunch or coffee together, sometimes go out to clubs or to concerts together.
Monique loves pinning up my long blonde hair in high ponytails or beautiful eleborate updos. I can discuss anything with Monique. We had a good marriage together, and now we have what Monique calls a "spiritual marriage" together.
Monique seems to love me being feminized as much as I love it for myself, and as Jay loves it for me.
I will always love Monique very much. I loved her as her husband when I was a man, and now we have this wonderful, close, spiritual relationship, like two very close girlfriends, who share so much together.
I have worked hard at being a woman, and I am loving it.

Take care Kristy. I just know that you are a warm, wonderful lady.
And thanks for these boards where us She-Males and transexual women can express ourselves in our unique internet community of transexual women and the wonderful men who appreciate them.

All of my love,
Johnette

p.s.-
What was your name Kristy when you were a man, before you became a woman?
Mine was John, I just changed it to the feminine version, to Johnette, when I became femininzed and started living as a woman.
My thanks again to Adam and yourself Kristy for these boards and website!

Hey! It's our pleasure to offer this message board. It's always nice getting to know good people.

Johnette - I'm so glad your family (including the ex) is supportive and that you have Jay to be there for you. It sounds like you're going to do just fine.

Many t-girls change their names to something similar to their male name
my ex: Chris to Kristy or Christy. This seems to make relating to the name a little easier. It isn't so easy to be called Chris most of your life and then suddenly start responding to Kristy. But, these days the name Chris sounds pretty foreign.

I hope everybody is enjoying the beautiful Spring weather.

Hugs 'n Kisses,

Kristy

Absolutely. I've been in the convertible the last three days. It's hard to get any work done when it first starts to get nice.

I love summer in Vegas, when the girls have to start taking clothes off!